Tuesday, November 15, 2011

LuCy Is HavInG OnE Of ThOsE DaYs..........

Hello Lovelies........

Blogging has been a hard thing to keep up with over the last few days and perhaps the last few weeks. The weather is not really playing its part in terms of the heat and I have been very busy juggling a full time job, being a face painter, a good wife and last but not least... blogger. I must admit I feel a little swamped and have neglected you all a little

This past Saturday Marsden and I ventured out to the Johannesburg Zoo for the first of 5 events that I have been booked for, besides two little "10 year old- I know it all" brats; the event went off without a hitch. I painted all the faces I needed to and was very pleased with all the work I produced. The zoo was happy, the parents were happy and it seems this may be the start of many more events to come.

A certain blonde haired blue eyed little girl just made my day. While waiting in the heat for what seemed like an eternity for a 4 year old, and changing her mind about 35 times before finally sitting for her close up, I was presented a very excited giggling face. "A BUTTERFLY!" she exclaimed, and her mind was made up. The pink and purple paint started to flow and with every stroke her heavy tired eyes closed a little more. Once I had finished she look up at her mom for approval, as if to say "did this lady do a good job?” her mom very excitedly nodded and told her that she looked beautiful. The small girl locked eyes with mine and stretched out her tiny arms, they only made it to my elbows but she embraced me with so much gratitude it almost made me get a lump in my throat.

This week will mark the 5Th failed attempt, of actually actively trying for a baby. I woke up this morning with a sense of deep disappointment. Five times seems so little to most, but the fact that I have not had any form of contraceptive in almost 5 years is still very worrying for me, my husband and my doctors. It takes a certain toll on your marriage when you struggle to fit in a missing piece. I say 'missing piece' because so many mothers I have spoken to have told me that once they had a child they felt whole, like everything fell into place. On Sunday I found myself looking at pictures a friend had posted on Face book of a child's birthday, the parents looked so content hovering over their small child with such pride and love. I got teary eyed and Marsden very sternly told me to stop crying. You see, it’s not only you that feels the sense of disappointment and sadness; it’s your partner too. Marsden didn't mean to lash out or be so stern, I believe he was simply just feeling the same way I did at that very moment and didn't really want to have deal with the tears and sadness all over again. You see Mars and I had planned that we would wait for children, and now we really have no choice but to actively think about it and try, or stand the risk of our disappointment being doubled in the long run. And yes ill say it, at times like these I need a Mommy hug.

Hopefully in the next few days I’ll begin to feel a little better and get excited about the very full weeks ahead. This weekend is mad with events, Friday Night is the 50th Birthday party of my second mom (I call her mom because she played a major role in my upbringing) Marsden and I are going to watch the Cricket on Saturday followed by rushing to a year end function that I have been booked to paint at. Sunday see's us rushing to a job at an 8 year olds birthday party followed by my good friend’s engagement party! Monday is a day of pampering as all the girls in the office get whisked off to do hair and make up for our black tie year end function (P.S: I don’t have a dress- eeeeeeeekkkkkk) and the following weekend is jammed packed full of face painting jobs for Serenity Creations. All in all very busy couple of days ahead, and the weeks to follow are much the same! and before I blink we will be singing loudly and watching Michaela open presents under the tree, only to blink again to be screaming 10, 9, 8, 7,......... and there you have it, 2011 will be over.

What do you want for Christmas?

Marsden vows never to say "this is going to be the best year ever", the last time he said it he lost me for 6 months and was unemployed. We both agree that we should rather pray that the New Year holds great things for us both and for our marriage. What do you look forward to in the New Year?

I won’t promise amazing things for the New Year, I will however promise to blog alot more and keep you all in the loop.

With all my love......

Sunday, November 6, 2011

LuCy LoVeS........... FeELInG InSpIrEd........A PrOmIsE.......

Hello lovelies...

Its a warm sunday afternoon, and after hearing about a good friends engagement i am just buzzing with excitement. it brings me back to the time that Marsden rode me up a mountain on horse back and got down on one knee to pop the question, most of the things he said are a fuzzy haze as a complete contentment filled my soul. There is really something about that moment that no one else can share with you, and when it happens it feels like all the surrounding features simply fade into darkness and there you both are, filled with undying love and a certainty of whats to come.

Marsden is asleep on the couch, and iv put a load of washing on after cleaning up the house. While i was walking through the house picking up socks and dirty clothes from the weekend, I paused in the doorway of the second guest bedroom. The room is small and intimate and homes my beautiful antique dresser that i inherited from my late Grandmother, the legs are made up of ball and claw and the mirror is filled with character from years of use. I love looking into that mirror, it makes me think of a younger version of my grandmother, sweeping her hair into curls while waiting for my Grandfather to get home. Just knowing that she once looked into that mirror makes me feel somewhat connected to her, almost as though the mirror reflected her marriage and is now reflecting mine. Besides being home to my dresser, the only other piece of furniture in the room is an old rocking chair that i inherited from my Aunt, the legs are wound up in a gorgeous spiral design and the seat reclines a long way back. I hung out in front of the door before finally stepping inside and taking a seat on the rocker. As i slowly reclined back and started to rock to and fro i gazed out of the window and felt the warm summer heat on my skin, I thought about the room and the potential it had, Could this space be more that just a dressing room for me?. I felt overwhelemd with faith and promise of an exciting future, that through all the discomfort and longing, oneday, I would be rocking a small child in my arms on that rocking chair, and have that mirror reflect Marsden and I's family.

Hearing about my friends engagement reminded me about the promise of marriage, and what an amazing gift it really is. To share all you have with one person, and as Iv heard it put before "irritate someone really special for the rest of your life". The other promise is that of new life, the chance to share the greatest bond, the bond of becoming a family. i know that our promise will be fufilled, Its the one thing that i feel content about and have the utmost faith in.

Remember all the promises you have in your life my lovelies, the very things that make you pause for just a moment and take a second to take it all in. Even if it is just rocking back and forth in a rocking chair for a few moment dreaming of what may lie ahead in your life.

With all my love.....

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

LuCy LoVeS.... UpGrAdInG To A .CoM

Helllllloooooo Lovelies...........

Today is a lovely day, and as i gaze out the frosted window of my office i can see the rumbling dark clouds slowly making their way towards me with the promise of rain, although you can never really trust the rain clouds in Johannesburg.I promised that i would post pictures from the Kings of Leon Concert that we went to over the weekend, and I promise i will, i need to work on editing a few of the pictures and really make the post amazing, just as amazing as the concert was. So if you'll stick around a little longer I promise to deliver something truly worth the wait.

So many of the blogs i have been reading have their very own .com webpages and soon ill be making the move over to my own domain. I would really like to grow I love Lucy into something special, and i feel a little limited with blogger. The trouble with making a move like this is the possibility of losing a couple of my lovely readers and i reallllllly dont want to do that, so closer to the time i will give you all the new domain name and i hope that you will all make the move with me. I should still be on blogger for a little while longer as the webpage has alot of work that needs to be done. I will also be copying all of the posts from i blogger to the new page, so you wont miss out on anything.

Last night Mars and I tried out the camera for the first time, I must admit its very awkward to watch yourself on camera, But I am certainly going to try. I plan to make a few tutorial vlogs and everything looks like its in order, so that should be an exciting quirk to the new webpage. Ladies pop me a comment if there is anything you would like me to talk about or do on my vlogs. This past weekend i did a grecian inspired hair do for my brothers girlfriend, and she loved it so much i decided ill do a tutorial on it.

The main thing about I love lucy is that i really want to try stay away from being to one dimensional, i dont just want this to be a space to blog about trends or hair. My main objective with this blog is to make it a personal space of all the things i love in life, and allow you to come along with me and read about my experiences, the same way i love following you.

I am really looking forward to this new adventure as i blog my way through my day to day life, and even more than that i look forward to sharing it with you.

Hope you are having an amazing day.........

With all my love......